Samantha has gotten really good at putting her arms through her own sleeves but is still really bad at drinking from a cup. I guess I just hold it for her too often.

I went to a hip specialist today to find out why my hip gets sore now and then. It is always hard to go to MA General. I was away for about five hours and I really missed Sam. I got a snack at the food court before I left and was sitting there looking out the window at the veranda I sat in three days after Emily died. I remember sitting there in the sun and wondering how to be alive without her. Now two and a half years later, I'm sitting there missing both my daughters, in different ways. Being a mom has some wonderful rewards, and some really difficult moments too.