This little poshke (?) has kept me up every hour since 4 am. She isn't happy staying anywhere except on top of my chest or my tummy. The devotion is nice, but right now sleep is looking better. Does that make me a bad mommy? I ask that question of myself alot. I think that having a well rested mommy makes me better able to cope, and thus a better parent. I just can't think how to get there. I am looking forward to Carolyn's arrival. It will be nice to have another adult around, even if it is just to talk to. Sam has started screaming again, that convulsive, can't breathe screaming. I'll check if she is hungry, although she has eaten every hour since 4am. Her capacity for ingesting food is a gastronomic achievement unparalleled in my experience.